BE IGNORED - 2

 I just realized we can't delete the feeling.

All that I do is just try to ignore it, denial, and not be honest.

Someone said if I fallin' to somebody I will give them a lot of exception.

Well, I think I do.

I ever feel a lot of things between us so different, but, I try to didn't care about it.

Yes, I loved clingy boy, but you are clingy to.... everybody.

I am a very jealous girl,

and you didn't like it.

I loved something clear, not blurry.

But you are so grey.

But again, there are so many exception that I can give to you.

You wanna be friends? let's be friends.

You wanna be bestie? Sorry I can't

I still wanna be a girl, so please look at me like I am a girl.

Do you ever think that I can be strong? Yes, I am, but still, I am the clingy one.

But I am only clingy to the one who I want, so, if you think I'm clingy or maybe too clingy, well you are that one.

Should I give you some congratulation? Well, I think no, 'cause it's not something you think is good.

I wanna be honest, with what I feel rn, but, I'm so afraid of everything that you will say.

and everything that will happen.

I wanna make you be mine, but I think you don't want to be someone's belonging.

So...

Idk what else.

It's just randomly written in a note, at 00.30 am.

well, it makes me remember some Taylor swift songs.

2 am who do you love?

and

please don't be in love with someone else.

well well well, it's going to be something long.

but yeah, here I am, writing something to you.

-Matahari jingga